Spinning in circles within my self-imposed limits and fears, I’ve decided to crack myself open, and be vulnerable here in this blog. Like an open book. Brené Brown said “shame cannot survive being spoken.. and being met with empathy. So, I feel called to do exactly that. I’ll type about it; and try to meet everything that comes up with compassion, kindness, love and faith.
“If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you.
If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you.”
I’ll be exploring my thoughts and beliefs about my body, smile, face and my looks; perfectionism; being gay, and an immigrant; family relations; being divorced and single; not able to afford certain things in life that others have; being a good dog dad; my flaws; being creative but not creative or talented or skilled enough; public speaking; coming out again and again; self worth, being enough, being lovable and able to love.
I believe by brining each of this topics to the surface and shining light on them – I will get to know myself better. I will get to see my true, authentic self that is love and wisdom living in peace. Opening myself up to the world is very much intimidating, and not having any social media or online presence for many years now is just making this step look even more scary. – However, I’m deciding to go fully in. To find those ugly and shameful pieces of myself, embrace them and make them big and bright. What Lizzo said in one of her songs: It’s about damn time.
Let’s see where this will take Nikola next.
“If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you.”
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